OMGhi2u

omghi2u @ 2006-05-01T19:37:00

2006-05-02T02:47:27Z

Ok people...best way to get the source engine? Buy HL:S, buy CS:S, buy one of the packages from Steam? Not really wanting CS:S or HL:S...mostly going for DoD, Hidden, etc (the lesser known actually fun ones). Anyone? Hell, anyone buy it and not using it? Oldschool Half-life would be a plus.

omghi2u @ 2006-01-24T21:39:00

2006-01-25T05:40:13Z

Sooo. Got engaged. It's pretty self-explanitory really. If I haven't told you personally...it isn't personal. Hell, I tried to get out of making the phone calls to my own family.

omghi2u @ 2005-11-29T06:45:00

2005-11-29T14:44:37Z

The best part of winter, is getting to wear my scarf.

omghi2u @ 2005-05-27T01:22:00

2005-05-27T08:25:25Z

Will Wright brings hope to the gaming world. That dude has some crazy ideas, and they're the good kind of crazy. Look for the video of his speach on his game "Spore" at the GDCE. There was a bit more about it at E3 (thus bringing it up again), but the GDCE speach gives you most of the info. It's an hour long, but damn worth it. If gaming starts to swing that way, it will be all for the better. Someone finally listened to the crazy people that can make fully 3D games that are 64kb.

In other news, this LJ has met its end. It's become a semi-pointless whine place...bi2u.

omghi2u @ 2005-05-21T17:11:00

2005-05-22T00:11:41Z

Dungeon Siege 2 is win!

omghi2u @ 2005-05-07T02:18:00

2005-05-07T09:19:21Z

Someone find me a Firefox Extension that will let me customize my mouse to open links in the background tab when I middle click on it. I sure as hell can't find it. It's pretty crappy when keyboard/mouse commands can't be customized.

omghi2u @ 2005-05-02T23:16:00

2005-05-03T06:19:50Z

FUCK. The biggest gathering of Supercars in Canada...AND I MISS IT. If I had gone to Banff on Saturday (a big 1 hour away), I could have been there. We're talking everthing from Skyline R34s, to Enzos, to Lambos, to even a MacLaren F1. The Gumball Canada (illegal street race across Canada) started and Banff was the first stop on the tour.

I feel so sad. So close, and yet so far. I blame being away from the internet for too long.

omghi2u @ 2005-05-02T11:00:00

2005-05-02T19:02:17Z

Ok, this is going to be a long one...a week of excitment to catch up on.

Saturday: Normally, 8 hours in a car with my family isn't at the top of my list of things to do. Turns out though, that if the kids are asleep and I get to do 110+ the whole way...it isn't that bad. Only thing of intrest was dodging a deer...let me tell you, 4000 lbs vehicles don't exactally WAY to dodge deer at 120km/h. The deer was lucky though, dispite the fact that he tried to run infront of me I dodged and missed him by about an inch. Although, my Mom and Missy all hyper after drinking Bawls was pretty damn funny. My Mom got very excited about seeing a moose...

Sunday: 8 hours in a car is supprising long. The day itself was spent adventuring/shopping in Invermere (nearest town). Nothing really of intrest there, almost got a wicked jacket...but didn't. Got some foods for the week then went back to the Resort. I was in the hot tub somewhere during that day.

Monday: Checked out around the Resort...stupid everything being closed. Who's dumb fuck idea was that? Pretty low key day in all.

Tueday: Drove out to Banff and checking out all the stores, hot springs, the hotel, and...thats about it. Checking Lake Louise for info on Boarding too. It was somewhat strange though...the whole area has A LOT of Free Mason stuff. Didn't see my Grandparents though :p

Wednesday: Snowboarding at Lake Louise. Despite the fact that Missy lost her board, and the fact that it took Dereck 3 hours to get down the hill (I had to stay with him), I actually had fun. I got one REAL run in. Missy had her skis, and T tagged along on her board...lots of fast, although I still don't have it down like I used to. Next season...

Thursday: Parents took the kids out for lunch and go-karting...me and Missy stayed and had some time without people around. Found the nicer hot tub and Sauna (thought the sauna was broken...but it didn't need to be working).

Friday: Wait...maybe Thursday was actually Friday. Damn, I totally don't know. Ya, I think it was...and Thrusday was actually doing nothing.

Saturday: Another lazy day...then I took Missy out to dinner at nice resturant in Invermere (Strands?). More hot tub.

Overall: Despite a few moments of crappyness...it was a good trip. Kinda hard to have a bad week when Missy is around though :p</ljcut>

Aparently when I was gone was a good time for stuff to arrive. I picked up the Xbox controller "dongle" so I can use my second controller, and my Xbox powercord (MS recalled them, cuz they start fires) arrived...and it's HUGE, as well as my mod-chip. It apparently didn't get lost, and is now installed in my Xbox without problems. BOO YA. How I missed having an illegal Xbox...but it's back.

If anyone wants the parts to install an Xecuter2.6 CE Modchip, I have all the parts. All it would REALLY let you do is prep your Xbox so when your chip arrives you can just install the chip and go. Includes the pin header, d0/hdd/lan wiring, alternete 5v wire, and v1.6 LPC rebuild. If you want it, drop me an e-mail...</ljcut>

All in all, I'm pretty happy...

omghi2u @ 2005-04-02T01:00:00

2005-04-02T09:05:31Z

I guess I'll post lots today too...just to fit in.

I'm quiet angry/sad/depressed/tired/...something.

The only thing more painful than missing someone, is missing someone that doesn't miss you.

Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.

In actual fact you are not willing to exert yourself in any way. You have that truly 'laid back' attitude and are unwilling to extend yourself or exert undue effort. You feel that to move forward - be it in your life style or in business relationships - would require more energy output than you are prepared to give at this time. You want to take life easy and your attitude is such that 'Enough is Enough'.

For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have un-admitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliché 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?

The new Colorgenics interface is better...just FYI.

omghi2u @ 2005-02-18T12:47:00

2005-02-18T20:47:27Z

http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=super_prom

Go go go...

omghi2u @ 2005-02-12T11:54:00

2005-02-12T19:55:15Z

That is all really...

omghi2u @ 2005-02-09T00:50:00

2005-02-09T08:51:20Z

See, now you went and made my whole evening crappy. My day was great until this "going on between us" crap. Soldier up and, hmm, TALK to me about it?

omghi2u @ 2005-02-03T00:30:00

2005-02-03T08:46:20Z

I can't even put this into words. I mean, fuck. I haven't caught a break since my "great" discussion last night. The shit storm just keeps building up.

Here is the test. If you think you've been a good friend, do nothing. If you think you've been a bad friend, do nothing. If you think you fall in between, make a comment (set to screened) to give me reason to keep you on the friends list. Too many people are on my friends list that don't deserve to be.

omghi2u @ 2005-01-02T23:07:00

2005-01-03T07:08:00Z

Friends only now...comment if you want to be on it. Everyone I assumed would want to be has been added. If I was unsure, you were dropped.

omghi2u @ 2004-11-18T04:55:00

2004-11-18T13:13:28Z

See...this is just one of the problems that Moli caused. It's 5:00 and I can't freaking sleep. I think I'll be able to. 3 hours of Underground 2 sucked out some energy.

So...things. It's all kind of in transition. I have all my little plans lined up, but haven't actually started any of them. Well, I've started some, but they have been paused until I can proceed with said plan. I have a letter/conversation to do with Rachael, t-shirts to silkscreen (thanks Carolyn), a brother to bond with, and a truck to start tearing apart. If I'm lucky, everything but the silkscreen will be on it's way to completion by the end of this weekend. I can see Rachael being busy and me being too lazy to work on the truck though...both of those things happen a lot :)

Am I the only one that gets really pissed when people seem to think they know how you feel? I'm not talking about being empathetic...I'm talking about "Ya, I've been there". No, you haven't. You arn't me, you don't have my life, you don't have any idea what it is like. Yes, I do it sometimes...but I try not to. When I say it, I mean to imply empathy...not actually meant as I know your exact feeling. I just, I get really pissed off when people seem to know how I feel...when I know they don't. If they knew how I felt...why the fuck arn't they helping? I mean really...if you have been in my exact position, you should know that I really need someone to be there. So why arn't you? Oh right, it's because it's all bullshit. You just want one more person feeling sorry for you. One more person to pity you.

While I'm ranting. Why is it that no one really "gets me". Not even any of my girlfriends have really understood me. James used to...almost...but he doesn't at all anymore. I'd do anything to find someone that I could talk to, and know they heard what I was saying. It always seems like the words people hear arn't the words I say. Not because they hear badly, but because I just...suck with the words. I don't talk much as it is, somewhat because I know it's all going to get turned around and come out wrong. It's like knowing the cure for cancer, but not being able to explain it to anyone. So much stuff in my head...so few people wanting to listen...none who understand.

So far, tomorrow is a lazy day, Friday is eating yummy food, Saturday is working on the truck with D-man, Sunday is...ok, that is where my plans stop. Oh, no, there is playing Halo 2 in there somewhere (Thursday, Saturday, or both). Down in the Vancouver-land with James...maybe with D-man.

omghi2u @ 2004-11-16T07:26:00

2004-11-16T15:41:05Z

One of the worst parts of in between night shifts is being away when no one else is. The people I want to talk to are never avalible when I do want to talk though...it just works like that. Ok, not ALL the time.

So, down to one day left at Moli. Strangely enough, Dave appears to have thought it was a race...and he won. Due to unknown circumstances, Justin had "a talk" with Dave...shortly after Dave was seeing having another short conversation with Justion, shaking his hand, then leaving. He made a comment to me about "Bet you didn't think I'd leave before you" and walked away. Not the best choice the guy has ever made, but he probably had reason. He gets blamed for a lot of stuff...most he did, some he didn't. As much as I don't think he's the smartest guy...he was still kinda cool (not including his bitching about breaks). It also puts the team in a bad place, losing two temps in one rotation. Giving my 2 weeks was as partly so the team didn't get screwed...so they had time to get a replacement. Dave gave them all of 2 seconds notice. We will see what happened for sure tomorrow...err...today...ya, today.

I'm doing my thing again where I make all these plans (ok, just one) of exactally what I want to happen for something. I don't like it, it never turns out well. Even if it isn't "bad", it rarely goes how I wanted it to go and thus get all...negitive emotioned with it. I'm trying to keep it general so the let down isn't huge...we will see.

Is it that I don't talk about myself very much, or people just don't "let" me talk about myself very much? Yes, I talk about myself a lot here...but in one-on-one conversation...I dunno, something just doesn't feel right when I talk about myself. I'm just not used to it. I've never really realized that until today. I don't really like it. Either reason, me or "them", isn't good.

I've been using "" a lot in this post. Don't really know why. Just because I can maybe.

Ooooo, maybe Justin will move me from Sizing to SAL with Karena tomorrow. That'd kick ass. It'd mean 12 hours of SAL...but I don't think I'd mind it. In the very least, paperwork would be easy because I would be in the know all day. I just hope I get off sizing. With my luck though, Mike will get it instead and no one will run VZ machines. *sigh* I can hope.

Special thanks go out to the person that makes the crazy noises. I suck at verbalizing the importance of people...but I meant it when I called you a "good friend". That's right, you're on the VIP list for my life's party.

Ok, it's almost 8:00...I've rambled on long enough. Time for sleepies.

omghi2u @ 2004-11-14T23:53:00

2004-11-15T07:54:53Z

Ok, so I just realized one problem with not having a job. I'm going to be so freaking bored! I mean, stuff fell through for tonight and I'm already bored. Hopefully my engine will keep me busy. I don't even have the trip to fill up large sums of time with fun.

omghi2u @ 2004-11-14T19:34:00

2004-11-15T03:53:23Z

Ok, so I should take the time to look at the FAQ and learn how to link users...but I'm lazy. I stole Colorquiz.com from Val.

Your Stress Sources
Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, he pursues his objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting his nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels he can only be at peace when he has finally reached his goal.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels that he is receiving less than his share and that there is no one on whom he can rely for sympathy and understanding. Pent-up emotions and a certain egocentricity make him quick to take offense, but he realizes that he has to make the best of things as they are.

Circumstances force him to compromise and to forgo some pleasures for the time being. Capable of achieving physical satisfaction from sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective
Needs a change in his circumstances or in his relationships which will permit relief from stress. Seeking a solution which will open up new and better possibilities and allow hopes to be fulfilled.

Your Actual Problem
The fear that he may be prevented from achieving the things he wants leads him into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.

Strangely enough, this site is even better than Colorgenics. Kinda ugly...but is pretty accurate and insightfull. Onto my own talking though.

Turns out my Mom was right. Rachael has officially ditched in the camping trip. Big, fucking, suprise. She also just wants to "chill" for a while on the whole dating thing. What the fuck kind of answer is that? On the plus side, I always seem to get a girlfriend when she doesn't want me (she only wants me when she can't have me...like in The OC). No, that is a joke...no current plans for a girlfriend. Although, the test did say I was able to "achiev physical satisfaction from sexual activity"...interesting. Personally though, I blame James. I just know he did something. She was upset and I know something happened between the two of them...knowing him he didn't go down without making some explosions. She's upset and doesn't want to talk about it...and women complain that it's GUYS who do that. Ok, we do.

Onto the fact that I only have 2 more shifts of Moli left. Nightshifts too...my favorite! I can't wait...my body can't wait...my brain can't wait. My wallet could probably wait though. I'm going to be somewhat poor after I buy the engine stuff. I'm going to miss the peoples though...*sigh*

I feel so much more...free now. I mean, in theory I should be all...depressed like this morning. I seem to be ok with it. Maybe it's just the Bawls talking.

omghi2u @ 2004-11-08T17:27:00

2004-11-09T01:38:12Z

Found someone to take the road-trip with me. Should be a hella fun sell to try and convince my parents though. In theory, there is nothing to freak out about (I'm 20...I'm a big boy). It's gonna rock, hardcore style. Plus, I realized I can stop in at CompUSA and get cheap Bawls...lots of it.

omghi2u @ 2004-11-08T08:36:00

2004-11-08T16:56:47Z

Ok, so I didn't fully think my whole "I hope James tells Rachael about stuff" thing through all the way. He did tell her...but he didn't tell her all of it. He missed the part where I admited I'd be fine with all of this if my emotions weren't screwed up from the drugs. So now, she thinks I'm talking badly about her behind her back...but I'm only half doing so. On the plus side, she admited she should be better about calling me back. Although, she told me I had to be more patient as she is busy a lot...no problem with that. Despite the fact I know it's going to somewhat suck...she's worth it. She's been an awsome friend when I needed her (most of the time)...I'm kinda short of good friends these days (short on friends in general).

Another day of Moli down. The count now sits at 5 days left. I'm really hoping tomorrow goes smoothly though...my elbow is still killing me from drilling. I'm just glad Carolyn saved my ass (well, elbow) and drilled for me. Drilling is done now though, so it is label inspection instead...I like label inspection.

In other news...there isn't really any. Just wanted to mention the whole James being a retard thing. Hopefully I get to sort shit out with her today. I'll sort shit out with James later.

omghi2u @ 2004-11-07T15:31:00

2004-11-07T23:37:07Z

It's official, Acura has made the worst traction control system. Around corners it puts most of the power to the outside tire, the one with the most traction. This sounds like a good idea...but what happens if that tire loses traction? You just lost over half of your rear traction...ass end slides. In a conventional system, the tire with the least traction gets the power so while it has a better chance of slipping, you will keep over half of your traction keeping you fairly well planted. If you want high performance traction...get a Limted-slip differential and be done with it (2 tires with 50% power > 1 tire with 100% power).

Also, in a recent survey of Americans...they found their average IQ by state. When you compare this to what states voted for who, all the smart states voted for Kerry. I don't really care who won (they both suck)...just thought it was funny.

The saddest thing about this entry is that I'm only writing it because WoW had to update. On the plus side, I get cool stuff after the patch :P

omghi2u @ 2004-11-06T21:44:00

2004-11-07T06:46:51Z

So, life brings me finally to my 25 off. Everything is getting closer to being done...only 6 more days of working.

I'll 'miss' Justin and Natalie. I'm not great friends with them, but they're fun to hang out with (and hella funny).
I'll actually miss Karena and Carolyn though. Ok, maybe not Carolyn...because I'll still play with her. I really don't see myself hanging out with Karena outside of work though.

Work has been pretty stardard. Begining sucks ass (VZ, drilling, float, drilling). I'm basically in solitude (except for breaks) until the last 4 hours. The last 4 hours are always great though...joking around with Karena and SAL. It's funny, when I leave I think "Why am I quitting? That wasn't bad."...then I remember the first 8 hours and I know why I'm quitting. I also remember I have to go home, sleep, and repeat it.

Apart from that, I've been playing World of Warcraft. What a sweet game...Toph was right though, it sucks your life away. Due to the fact that I have nothing else to do...I'd rather be highly distracted by a game than lonely. Video games have pretty much always been my distraction from pain (aka, weakness leaving the body). I like my little Night Elf Hunter. He gets a pet soon! Can't deside what I want though...probably a cat (tiger style cat...not house cat), but maybe a bear.

Truck parts are FINALLY coming together. The engine is in the garage as you have seen, got a good deal on a transmission kit (ebay) and it's on it's way, and I just have to find someone to take a road-trip with me. Anyone free for a 48ish hour trip south of the boarder? Over 19 (makes crossing boarder easier) and open to sharing a sleeping bag are pluses (no, not guys Lucas...I won't share one with you). Going down to Eugene (south of Portland) to pick-up my engine adapter and then camping for two nights. 48 hours means I can bring a bunch of stuff over duty free (yay saving money). If you want to go shopping, we can stop for that too...our Canadian $ is kicking ass, so it'd be a plus.

After this rotation, I'm heading up to Whistler for a night...hang out there for the day (maybe spend another night)...come back down and play WoW until I have to work again! Yay for going Hermit style...I like hiding in my room.

Amazingly enough, James asked how I was doing with Rachael (although, he knows I've been shot down, so not a big suprise). Told him I thought she was a bitch...part of me hopes his passes on the fact that I'm pretty damn choked. Told him to hurry up, talk to her, and move on too. Doubt he'll do it...he's to addicted to 'stalking' her. I can't REALLY blame him...but she isn't that great a person as can be seen. I really thought one date wouldn't change anything...aparently she can't be there for me (as a friend) when I need her though. It's the comfort thing...I've known her for a long time and we've always had that 'spark'...I just needed to hang out, but she couldn't even press 10 digits on her phone. The whole thing was just a dumb idea...I realize that now though. As they say, hindsight is always 20/20.

I'm thinking of getting laser-eye surgery in the not TOO far away future. I talked to Justin about it...$2500 for better than 20/20 (I think it is 20/200). I'm sure a small chunk of that would be under medical...but I just want to get rid of these damn glasses. I don't have to clean my eyeballs all the time! My glasses are perma-dirty. I'm going to go glasses shopping soon...if I find something that I like (or my sister tells me I like is what usually happens), I might get those.

My current condition...I feel so...I don't know. Not quite numb, although there is some numb. I feel like a semi-healed wound. My emotions are still screwed up and that just doesn't help. I go from being happy, ok, and moved on...to horribly crushed about my whole life in the matter of about 10 mins. And then back again. I really need my camping trip (ok, so maybe sleeping in the Van in a campground)...it'll be a lot of fun...and won't have anything to remind me about...life. As a seguay for talking about my emotions...I will now talk about how cool my trip will be.

I might take the Echo...all depends on who comes with me. If they want the actual outdoor experience, I'll pack camping stuff and have a 100% fun camping trip (not a 10% nazi training camp like camping with my Dad is sometimes). If not, I'll take the Van and live it up. Possibly bring a small TV and the PSx...bring the laptop...lots of munchies...just do whatever the hell I want for a few days. Camping hella-fun Caswell style. Most of all, I just want to have freedom. I just want to go there, and not really know when I'm coming back. This all hinges on having someone also kick-ass fun to come with me. James has shit to do (school and his weekendly mosaic thing)...so he's a no go. My second impulse was Rachael...but then...ya...I snapped into reality. She's got the fun thing...but not the stable friend thing. Everyone is too busy to just drop their lives and fly away with me anyways.

As you can tell...I'm in one of those talking moods...just lots to say...randomly...but I'm done now.

Ok, no...one more thing. I got myself addicted "My Happy Ending" by Avril yesterday...mainly because it's how I felt at the time. Anyways, get in my car this morning, turn on the CD player, and it starts playing...it was really funny confusing. Apparently Liz burnt her albums to a CD and was listening to it.

omghi2u @ 2004-11-04T17:31:00

2004-11-05T01:36:19Z

So I had my follow-up appointment for my drugs today. Apparently, it is normal for me to be abnormally emotional when I start the drugs...that information of course is not as usefull now as it could have been. On the plus side, I noticed all the good things it did...so I can't complain too much. I just wish the last month hadn't been such a rollercoaster. I was never just...average (which I usually am). I was always really happy, or really sad. I can feel it start to level out...but still not quite.

In some ways it's better. I kinda missed emotions, they are good to have around sometimes. I just wish they were easier to control. It's like being horney though...you just can't change it.

omghi2u @ 2004-11-04T16:35:00

2004-11-05T00:38:58Z

Toph get's an entry dedicated to him...cuz he rawks.

omghi2u @ 2004-11-04T14:54:00

2004-11-04T23:13:10Z

Look what I found in my garage :)

Yay for me.