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[May. 1st, 2006|07:37 pm] |
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Ok people...best way to get the source engine? Buy HL:S, buy CS:S, buy one of the packages from Steam? Not really wanting CS:S or HL:S...mostly going for DoD, Hidden, etc (the lesser known actually fun ones). Anyone? Hell, anyone buy it and not using it? Oldschool Half-life would be a plus. |
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[Jan. 24th, 2006|09:39 pm] |
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Sooo. Got engaged. It's pretty self-explanitory really. If I haven't told you personally...it isn't personal. Hell, I tried to get out of making the phone calls to my own family. |
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[Nov. 29th, 2005|06:45 am] |
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The best part of winter, is getting to wear my scarf. |
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[May. 27th, 2005|01:22 am] |
Will Wright brings hope to the gaming world. That dude has some crazy ideas, and they're the good kind of crazy. Look for the video of his speach on his game "Spore" at the GDCE. There was a bit more about it at E3 (thus bringing it up again), but the GDCE speach gives you most of the info. It's an hour long, but damn worth it. If gaming starts to swing that way, it will be all for the better. Someone finally listened to the crazy people that can make fully 3D games that are 64kb.
In other news, this LJ has met its end. It's become a semi-pointless whine place...bi2u. |
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[May. 21st, 2005|05:11 pm] |
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Dungeon Siege 2 is win! |
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[May. 7th, 2005|02:18 am] |
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Someone find me a Firefox Extension that will let me customize my mouse to open links in the background tab when I middle click on it. I sure as hell can't find it. It's pretty crappy when keyboard/mouse commands can't be customized. |
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[May. 2nd, 2005|11:16 pm] |
FUCK. The biggest gathering of Supercars in Canada...AND I MISS IT. If I had gone to Banff on Saturday (a big 1 hour away), I could have been there. We're talking everthing from Skyline R34s, to Enzos, to Lambos, to even a MacLaren F1. The Gumball Canada (illegal street race across Canada) started and Banff was the first stop on the tour.
I feel so sad. So close, and yet so far. I blame being away from the internet for too long. |
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[May. 2nd, 2005|11:00 am] |
Ok, this is going to be a long one...a week of excitment to catch up on.
( The trip... ) |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2005|01:00 am] |
I guess I'll post lots today too...just to fit in.
I'm quiet angry/sad/depressed/tired/...something.
The only thing more painful than missing someone, is missing someone that doesn't miss you.
( Colorgenics )
The new Colorgenics interface is better...just FYI. |
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[Feb. 9th, 2005|12:50 am] |
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See, now you went and made my whole evening crappy. My day was great until this "going on between us" crap. Soldier up and, hmm, TALK to me about it? |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2005|12:30 am] |
I can't even put this into words. I mean, fuck. I haven't caught a break since my "great" discussion last night. The shit storm just keeps building up.
Here is the test. If you think you've been a good friend, do nothing. If you think you've been a bad friend, do nothing. If you think you fall in between, make a comment (set to screened) to give me reason to keep you on the friends list. Too many people are on my friends list that don't deserve to be. |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2005|11:07 pm] |
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Friends only now...comment if you want to be on it. Everyone I assumed would want to be has been added. If I was unsure, you were dropped. |
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[Nov. 18th, 2004|04:55 am] |
See...this is just one of the problems that Moli caused. It's 5:00 and I can't freaking sleep. I think I'll be able to. 3 hours of Underground 2 sucked out some energy.
So...things. It's all kind of in transition. I have all my little plans lined up, but haven't actually started any of them. Well, I've started some, but they have been paused until I can proceed with said plan. I have a letter/conversation to do with Rachael, t-shirts to silkscreen (thanks Carolyn), a brother to bond with, and a truck to start tearing apart. If I'm lucky, everything but the silkscreen will be on it's way to completion by the end of this weekend. I can see Rachael being busy and me being too lazy to work on the truck though...both of those things happen a lot :)
Am I the only one that gets really pissed when people seem to think they know how you feel? I'm not talking about being empathetic...I'm talking about "Ya, I've been there". No, you haven't. You arn't me, you don't have my life, you don't have any idea what it is like. Yes, I do it sometimes...but I try not to. When I say it, I mean to imply empathy...not actually meant as I know your exact feeling. I just, I get really pissed off when people seem to know how I feel...when I know they don't. If they knew how I felt...why the fuck arn't they helping? I mean really...if you have been in my exact position, you should know that I really need someone to be there. So why arn't you? Oh right, it's because it's all bullshit. You just want one more person feeling sorry for you. One more person to pity you.
While I'm ranting. Why is it that no one really "gets me". Not even any of my girlfriends have really understood me. James used to...almost...but he doesn't at all anymore. I'd do anything to find someone that I could talk to, and know they heard what I was saying. It always seems like the words people hear arn't the words I say. Not because they hear badly, but because I just...suck with the words. I don't talk much as it is, somewhat because I know it's all going to get turned around and come out wrong. It's like knowing the cure for cancer, but not being able to explain it to anyone. So much stuff in my head...so few people wanting to listen...none who understand.
So far, tomorrow is a lazy day, Friday is eating yummy food, Saturday is working on the truck with D-man, Sunday is...ok, that is where my plans stop. Oh, no, there is playing Halo 2 in there somewhere (Thursday, Saturday, or both). Down in the Vancouver-land with James...maybe with D-man. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2004|07:26 am] |
One of the worst parts of in between night shifts is being away when no one else is. The people I want to talk to are never avalible when I do want to talk though...it just works like that. Ok, not ALL the time.
So, down to one day left at Moli. Strangely enough, Dave appears to have thought it was a race...and he won. Due to unknown circumstances, Justin had "a talk" with Dave...shortly after Dave was seeing having another short conversation with Justion, shaking his hand, then leaving. He made a comment to me about "Bet you didn't think I'd leave before you" and walked away. Not the best choice the guy has ever made, but he probably had reason. He gets blamed for a lot of stuff...most he did, some he didn't. As much as I don't think he's the smartest guy...he was still kinda cool (not including his bitching about breaks). It also puts the team in a bad place, losing two temps in one rotation. Giving my 2 weeks was as partly so the team didn't get screwed...so they had time to get a replacement. Dave gave them all of 2 seconds notice. We will see what happened for sure tomorrow...err...today...ya, today.
I'm doing my thing again where I make all these plans (ok, just one) of exactally what I want to happen for something. I don't like it, it never turns out well. Even if it isn't "bad", it rarely goes how I wanted it to go and thus get all...negitive emotioned with it. I'm trying to keep it general so the let down isn't huge...we will see.
Is it that I don't talk about myself very much, or people just don't "let" me talk about myself very much? Yes, I talk about myself a lot here...but in one-on-one conversation...I dunno, something just doesn't feel right when I talk about myself. I'm just not used to it. I've never really realized that until today. I don't really like it. Either reason, me or "them", isn't good.
I've been using "" a lot in this post. Don't really know why. Just because I can maybe.
Ooooo, maybe Justin will move me from Sizing to SAL with Karena tomorrow. That'd kick ass. It'd mean 12 hours of SAL...but I don't think I'd mind it. In the very least, paperwork would be easy because I would be in the know all day. I just hope I get off sizing. With my luck though, Mike will get it instead and no one will run VZ machines. *sigh* I can hope.
Special thanks go out to the person that makes the crazy noises. I suck at verbalizing the importance of people...but I meant it when I called you a "good friend". That's right, you're on the VIP list for my life's party.
Ok, it's almost 8:00...I've rambled on long enough. Time for sleepies. |
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[Nov. 14th, 2004|11:53 pm] |
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Ok, so I just realized one problem with not having a job. I'm going to be so freaking bored! I mean, stuff fell through for tonight and I'm already bored. Hopefully my engine will keep me busy. I don't even have the trip to fill up large sums of time with fun. |
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[Nov. 14th, 2004|07:34 pm] |
Ok, so I should take the time to look at the FAQ and learn how to link users...but I'm lazy. I stole Colorquiz.com from Val.
Your Stress Sources
Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, he pursues his objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting his nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels he can only be at peace when he has finally reached his goal.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels that he is receiving less than his share and that there is no one on whom he can rely for sympathy and understanding. Pent-up emotions and a certain egocentricity make him quick to take offense, but he realizes that he has to make the best of things as they are.
Circumstances force him to compromise and to forgo some pleasures for the time being. Capable of achieving physical satisfaction from sexual activity.
Your Desired Objective
Needs a change in his circumstances or in his relationships which will permit relief from stress. Seeking a solution which will open up new and better possibilities and allow hopes to be fulfilled.
Your Actual Problem
The fear that he may be prevented from achieving the things he wants leads him into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.
Strangely enough, this site is even better than Colorgenics. Kinda ugly...but is pretty accurate and insightfull. Onto my own talking though.
Turns out my Mom was right. Rachael has officially ditched in the camping trip. Big, fucking, suprise. She also just wants to "chill" for a while on the whole dating thing. What the fuck kind of answer is that? On the plus side, I always seem to get a girlfriend when she doesn't want me (she only wants me when she can't have me...like in The OC). No, that is a joke...no current plans for a girlfriend. Although, the test did say I was able to "achiev physical satisfaction from sexual activity"...interesting. Personally though, I blame James. I just know he did something. She was upset and I know something happened between the two of them...knowing him he didn't go down without making some explosions. She's upset and doesn't want to talk about it...and women complain that it's GUYS who do that. Ok, we do.
Onto the fact that I only have 2 more shifts of Moli left. Nightshifts too...my favorite! I can't wait...my body can't wait...my brain can't wait. My wallet could probably wait though. I'm going to be somewhat poor after I buy the engine stuff. I'm going to miss the peoples though...*sigh*
I feel so much more...free now. I mean, in theory I should be all...depressed like this morning. I seem to be ok with it. Maybe it's just the Bawls talking. |
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[Nov. 8th, 2004|05:27 pm] |
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Found someone to take the road-trip with me. Should be a hella fun sell to try and convince my parents though. In theory, there is nothing to freak out about (I'm 20...I'm a big boy). It's gonna rock, hardcore style. Plus, I realized I can stop in at CompUSA and get cheap Bawls...lots of it. |
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[Nov. 8th, 2004|08:36 am] |
Ok, so I didn't fully think my whole "I hope James tells Rachael about stuff" thing through all the way. He did tell her...but he didn't tell her all of it. He missed the part where I admited I'd be fine with all of this if my emotions weren't screwed up from the drugs. So now, she thinks I'm talking badly about her behind her back...but I'm only half doing so. On the plus side, she admited she should be better about calling me back. Although, she told me I had to be more patient as she is busy a lot...no problem with that. Despite the fact I know it's going to somewhat suck...she's worth it. She's been an awsome friend when I needed her (most of the time)...I'm kinda short of good friends these days (short on friends in general).
Another day of Moli down. The count now sits at 5 days left. I'm really hoping tomorrow goes smoothly though...my elbow is still killing me from drilling. I'm just glad Carolyn saved my ass (well, elbow) and drilled for me. Drilling is done now though, so it is label inspection instead...I like label inspection.
In other news...there isn't really any. Just wanted to mention the whole James being a retard thing. Hopefully I get to sort shit out with her today. I'll sort shit out with James later. |
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